I Wont Be Your Winter

Cape Cod Again

Sun, 10 May 2009 04:43:07 GMT

Ugh, I'm home.

I start work on Friday.

The end of life as I know it.

Obessions and Anxieties

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 04:51:09 GMT

I don't feel right using all my anime love icons anymore...

I haven't updated in a while. I guess I start all of my entries like that now. Chronicling my life does not seem as enthralling as it once did. I suppose now it's because I am actually living in, instead of dwelling in the events. But for the sake of tradition, I am going to write about my life from the past few weeks.

Dustin and I are still trying to manage the friendship ideal, but the line between friend and boyfriend are still very mixed. I think I am just so dependent on him for support, friendship, and comfort that I can not bear to move on with my life completely. For the past 3 years, he has just been such a huge part of my college experience, that I would literally be lost without him. My whole college routine would be shattered. I know it's healthy to be so dependent on one person, but he was all I had. Now that I have made friends, and have begun to move on in a new direction, I feel guilty because I am leaving him behind. That is the main problem I am struggling with right now.

I like Ryan, and I could see myself dating him (someday), but the thought alone tears my heart apart with guilt because Dustin "doesn't want to date anytime soon." Although that's his decision and completely fine, I can't help but feeling guilty because I feel like I am leaving him behind and seeking new things. I don't want him to think I am replacing him. I don't want him to think I don't love him anymore, or respect him, or want his friendship, because I do. I do. I do. (Sylvia Plath, much? A much too much). It's just that sometimes I still feel tied down because of these feelings and if I feel smothered, then I am sure he does too.

It's hard to juggle friendship between two people who do not like each other. I am constantly apologizing for the other person, or trying to be the mediator, but it gets tiring. I am constantly amazed at how well Dustin is handling everything. I know that living with Ryan is so difficult for him, yet he still manages to be calm about everything. I don't know what more I could ask of him.

I'm still not ready to write about Ryan yet. I'm not ready to think about these feelings. It's all so foreign. There are times when I can embrace how I feel and realize that in more time I will be ready for new things, but then there are times when I break down and cry because I don't want to hurt Dustin. Since I am so torn, I know that I am not ready to start a new relationship or anything of that sort. There's plenty of time, and I really need to heal, and work on my friendship with Dustin, because he is someone that I really do not want to lose.

Then again, neither is Ryan. I hope all of my attention to Dustin doesn't affect him. I've never really talked to him about it...

In other news! I am doing my prepracticum at McCann Tech School here in North Adams. I'm slightly scared because I wouldn't think of sending an English teacher to a tech school, but I'll roll with it. My mentor teacher emailed me back I am going to the school on Tuesday at 1 to talk with her and meet her senior English class. I'm excited and nervous! I'm mostly nervous about the fact that I have to complete 60 hours of classroom time in 10ish weeks. It's going to be a demanding schedule with my 4 classes at college. I'll do it though. I always do.

My other classes are boring and mundane. Brit Lit is... ugh. World Lit could have to potential to be interesting, but there isn't enough time in class to delve into the text. Reading in the content are is WICKED boring, and Teaching Strategies could be ok. The last two are both 2 1/2 hour classes, so it's hard to concentrate for so long.

My weeks here consist mostly of napping and hanging out at 15. That will all change once I start going to the highschool, though. I think everyone at 15 finally considers me a friend, which makes me feel good and more comfortable being over there. As much as it is awkward that Ryan lives there now, it also helped bridge the gap that was there with everyone else. On a sidenote, I made everyone roar, and it was cute and goofy!

My nautical obsession has grown!

I can't think of much else to write. There have been a lot of silly things that happened, but I'm sure if I look back in a year or so, they won't mean anything to me, so I won't bother typing them out.

I'm in a strange place in my life right now. I feel both lost and accepted at the same time. My hormones are raging right now! It feels like the civil war in my uterus, so I am gonna lay down and wait for Frasier to come on.

<3

Everybody Wake Up! It's Time to Get Down

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 23:34:30 GMT

Bands // Song Titles

Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:: Death Cab For Cutie
Are you female or male:: Different Names for the Same Thing
Describe yourself:: A Lack of Color
How do some people feel about you:: A Movie Script Ending
How do you feel about yourself:: I Was A Kaleidoscope
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: I Will Follow You Into the Dark
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: Debate Exposes Doubt
Describe where you want to be:: Passenger Seat
Describe what you want to be:: Soul Meets Body
Describe how you live:: Steadier Footing
Describe how you love:: The Sound of Settling
Share a few words of wisdom:: Someday You Will Be Loved

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Thu, 23 Sep 2004 02:18:21 GMT

I've decided to make a picture story of today's events:

Colleen took the bus over my house, and at 2:45 Melissa showed up. We decided that our asses: (mine)

(colleen's)(and melissa's) needed a little work out. So we trecked through the woods. This is where it all began. After walking for fifteen minutes we needed a break. So Colleen and I sat on this random chair in the woods. Unfortunately, she got me so incredibly horny that my bulging boner appeared. That was wicked embarassing. I eventually fixed it. Melissa called me over to the couch pretending she wanted to get into my pants (because you all know how horny I was), but instead she just pushed me off. I dirtied my hands. :( But Colleen was still a little aroused, so she showed us her boobs. I had to give her 2 bucks. We decided to keep moving. Melissa made us her slaves. middlefingercore. We had to walk for miles on end. . You don't even know how tired we were. But, we got Melissa to do some shrooms . She passed out and we got our revenge! No more slave master. To celebrate, Colleen and I toked up . The pipe was a little long, but we managed. I thought I was Superman (it was really good weed). And then Colleen and I watched TV. Nothing good was on, so we left. Colleen got me to take the left over shrooms from Melissa. . Unfortunately for her, I halluscinated that she was a witch and were back in 1600 Puritan New England.

<lj-cut text="I hung her"> </lj-cut>. And then disposed of both the bodies (Colleen's and Melissa's). It was all just a dream I came to realize, and Colleen and Melissa were never really dead. We walked some more through the woods and this led to the water tower that we never knew was there . Then a car came and told us to leave. We then forgot what road to take back , but we recognized Colleen's house , so we took that road. We road bikes , and eventually came out to a very familiar neighborhood. We decided to go to Tom's house, but on our way there we saw some random sophomore rollerblading, but he wasn't too friendly. Then we made it to Tom's! We were going to bake him a cake for his birthday, but I didn't have enough eggs. But we had to go home. Melissa got so excited by Tom's pressence that she pissed herself.Actually, she just ran through his sprinkler. Our walk home was filled with animals! A snake almost attacked us , and a squirrel got ran over and his heart went flying across the road. <lj-cut text="View squirrel heart with discretion"> </lj-cut>. Then we decided to go to Dunkin Donuts. Colleen enjoyed her muffin , but Melissa was really pissing me off so I ripped her a new asshole . Then we went back to my house, and that was basically my day.

I got my book, "Hot Water Music," by Bukowski. I read the first page in the car. It's going to be an awesome book.

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 17:30:42 GMT

Comment if you want to stay a friend.

Survey

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 20:32:22 GMT

Date: August 6, 2004.
Time: 4:04 P.M
[[------BASICS------]]
[x] Name: Kirsten
[x] What does it mean: The Annointed
[x] Nickname: Joe, Kir, KK
[x] How did you get your nickname: Joe-because I used to look like Joey Ramone, Kir- It's my name shortned, KK- because my dad just called me KK
[x] Gender: Female.
[x] Homo/Bi/Straight: Straight.
[x] Single/Taken: Single
[x] Location: Mashpee, MA.
[x] Digits: Um, ask me in person
[x] Sign: Capricorn
[[------APPERANCE------]]
[x] Eye Color: Hazel
[x] Make-up: rarely
[x] Hair color: Reddish brown
[x] Long or short hair: Medium
[x] Height: 5‘9"
[x] Weight: 125ish
[x] Tattoos: I'll get the dropkick murphys logo on my back someday
[x] Piercings: nada
[x] Nationality: 3/4 Irish and 1/4 Austrian
[[------FAVORITES------]]
[x] Shampoo: Dove or Herbal Essence
[x] Conditioner: see above
[x] Body wash: don't use it. Soap is fine
[x] Lotion: anything that smells good.
[x] Animal: Pig
[x] Fast food: Umm McDonalds?
[x] Restaurant: I don't have a favorite
[x] Fruit: Pineapple or Strawberries
[x] Vegetable: broccoli
[x] Soda: Dr. Pepper or Root beer.
[x] Alcoholic drink: Rum! lol straight rum is fine.
[x] Cigarette: Parliaments taste like mashed potatoes lol. But I dont smoke.
[x] Drug: Pot?
[x] TV show: ER or Sex and the City
[x] Cartoon: Daria
[x] Band: I don't have a favorite. Probably Bright Eyes or Dropkick Murphys (yes, quite a dramatic genre change)
[x] Song: No idea.
[[------CURRENT------]]
[x] Thought: My eye hurts
[x] Music: At the moment, Minor Threat- Bottled Violence
[x] Food: Nothing
[x] Drink: nothing.
[x] Clothing: blue jeans, belt, Juliana Theory shirt, shoes, socks, etc
[x] Hairstyle: Down... like always
[x] Mood: bored, annoyed
[x] Shoes: Saucony
[[------HAVE YOU EVER------]]
[x] Done drugs: Yeah.
[x] Drank alcohol: Yeah.
[x] Had sex: Yeah.
[x] Stripped: Eh, no.
[x] Skinny dipped: yes.
[x] Fist fought: nope.
[x] Broke a bone: no
[[------WHAT MAKES YOU------]]
[x] Happy: Friends and chocolate
[x] Angry: dentists, school, work
[x] Depressed: boys, Seth, my parents
[x] Nervous: driving
[x] Scared: death, being shut down, math, aliens, willy wonka
[[------WHO IS THE------]]
[x] Hottest guy: Um... Cal? And then I have a list of others lol. Orlando Bloom, Johnny Depp, the usual lol.
[x] Hottest chick: Me, you dumb fucks.
[x] Loudest: Oh, this is about friends? Um... Greg
[x] Quietest: Jamie
[x] Talented: We're all talented
[x] Motherly: Meghan
[x] Asshole: Lot's of my friends are assholes, but the biggest one as of now is probably Josh (I can't wait for the comments on his entry) lol.
[x] Druggie: hahah, WELL, besides Josh and Meghan, the rest of us are.
[x] Funniest: Colleen probably
[x] Annoying: No one
[[------DRUGS------]]
[x] When was the first time you ever smoked pot: With Chelsea I think in her room. And then me trying to call my mom, but I couldn't stop laughing. It's on video tape!
[x] The last time you smoked pot: A few days ago? lol.
[x] First time you ever drank alcohol: drank? Um sometime during April or May?
[x] Last time you drank alcohol: Sometime during July
[x] First time you ever smoked a cigarette: July
[x] Last time you smoked a cigarette: um, end of July
[x] First time you ever experienced any other drugs, but pot: Excluding pills, I haven't do any other drug.
[x] Last time you ever did any other drugs:
[[------LOVE/SEX/RELATIONSHIPS------]]
[x] Do you have a crush: No, not really. I just think some kids are wicked hot, but hey, I don't have any girlfriendish feelings for them.
[x] What‘s their name:
[x] Do you have a boyfriend: No
[x] What‘s their name:
[x] Do you have a girlfriend: No
[x] What‘s their name:
[x] What age did you lose your virginity at: 15
[x] Do you regret it: No, actually, I don't.
[x] How many sexual partners have you had: Three...
[x] How many were guys: All of them
[x] How many were girls: none.
[x] How many guys have you kissed: 4
[x] How many girls have you kissed: 1/2 lol
[x] Have you ever thought about being Homosexual or Bisexual: No. I've always known I was straight.
[x] If you are a female: If you got pregnant and didn‘t want the child, would you abort it: Definitely.
[[------OPINIONS------]]
[x] Abortion: ALL FOR IT!
[x] George Bush: Ew
[x] Religion: Religion will be the end of the world. Religion causes too many problems.
[x] Pre-marital sex: For
[x] Drugs: Definitely
[x] War: It's ok in some cases.
[[------PREFRENCES------]]
[x] Coke or Pepsi: pepsi.
[x] Kiss or Hug: Depends on who it is.
[x] Small or Big: medium?
[x] Decaf coffee or Regular: Ech! I hate coffee
[x] Deaf or blind: Deaf
[x] If you were condemned to death, would you rather burn or freeze to death: Freeze
[[------BESTFRIEND------]]
[x] Who is your best friend: I don't really have 1 bestfriend anymore, but I'd say Meghan.
[x] How old are they: 16.
[x] How long have you known them: For 7 years
[x] Where did you meet: School.
[x] Exactly how did you meet [[Give details]]: Um, It was 4th grade and it was lunch. I was the new kid and I didn't know anyone, so she said I could sit with her.
[x] Best memory: There are way too many. Going to New York, her mom's dildos, watching porn with the black box, many many boyfriends, going out to dinner with Mumu "my nips are frozen", umm so many inside jokes!
[x] Worst memory: The fact that we're not that close anymore.
[x] What were your thoughts when you first met them: She's nice.
[x] Have your thoughts changed since then: completely. No.
[x] Have they changed your life at all: Yes, she is always there for me, and understands what I go through. She's just awesome.
[x] Have you done anything that you regret: No
[x] What do you regret: Nada
[x] Is there anything you‘d like to tell them now: You've always been there for me even when I haven't been there for you because I take you for granted a lot, but I understand and I know you're my best friend.
[[------FAMILY------]]
[x] Father‘s name: Scott
[x] What did/does he do for a living: He fixes computers of the telephone
[x] Mother‘s name: Kirsten
[x] What did/does she do for a living: She works with retarded people at a group home
[x] Any sisters: Yeah
[x] Their names: Marissa and Stephanie
[x] Their ages: 14 and 12
[x] Any brothers: nope
[x] Their names:
[x] Their ages:
[x] Who do you live with: Mom, dad, nan, marissa, stephanie
[x] Do you get along with your parents: Sometimes
[x] Do you get along with your siblings: Not that much anymore. They tell on everything I do.
[[------ENDING------]]
[x] This survey is almost done, are you glad: Not really, I am still bored, and I have 2 hours until Susan gets here.
[x] What is your favorite quote: I dont have one
[x] What time is it now: 4:32 P.M

Quiz!

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 16:05:56 GMT

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

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Mon, 02 Aug 2004 17:19:39 GMT

Taken from flaminghearts87

A - Age: 16
B - Boyfriend: No one
C - Career in future: Teacher, or writer, or actress
D - Dad's name: Scott
E - Easiest person to talk to: Melissa
F - Favourite song at the moment: Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh- Bright Eyes
G - Good movie recently seen: The Village and Strangeland
H - Hometown: Mashpee, MA
I - Instruments: Keyboard, piano
J- Job Title: Cashier
K - Kids: I want 1
L - Longest car ride ever: Florida when I was in 1st grade
M - Mum's name: Tracey
N - Number of siblings: 2
O - Olives Anyone?: NO!
P - Phobia[s]: Willy Wonka and Aliens
Q - Quote: No idea!
R - Reason to smile: Love and friends
S - Song you sang last: "Crack Cocain!" by Melissa and me
T - Time you wake up: depends on if I work or not
U - Unique trait: Being able to impersonate Cher
V - Vegetable you love: Broccoli
W - Worst habit: Spending too much money
X - X-rays you've had: teeth and knee
Y - Yummy food you make: haha...cereal? Nothing. I can't cook
Z - Zodiac sign: Capricorn

Melissa and My Song

crack cocain, crack cocain do you want to fuck your brain
crack cocain, crack cocain you wont ever be the same
crack cocain, crack cocain, if you sniff it you will die
crack cocain, crack cocain, even though it makes your fly.

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 01:07:51 GMT

you are darkmagenta
#8B008B

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.

Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.

Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Reflections

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 18:47:23 GMT

Who am I?

I feel like I've lost myself. I feel like I have been lying to myself about so many things. I am confused about a lot of things. I don't know who my real friends are. I don't know who really like me for who I am. It feels like my life in a lie. I feel so lost, and I am beginning to feel alone, and it's not because I don't have a boyfriend (just to make that clear). I just feel like no one understands who I am emotionally. Seth did, but he's gone now. We were so perfect together. He's going through a tough time right now. We've been through the same thing before. I was talking to him last night, and I sort of told him that I felt like he never loved me. I know it's an old topic, and I know that we broke up 4 months ago, but I still think about him. It actually came about when I was cleaning my room and I found the scarf he made me. I actually sat on my bed and began to remember what we did. When I was with him I felt like I was such a little kid. We giggled, we were immature, and nothing really mattered except us. It was like something out of a movie, literally. I loved him so much, and I fucked it all up, I know. Anyway, he told me that he did love me, and that I was such a huge part of his life. And I am really happy that he and Kiva are in such an awesome relationship. I know it might seem like I am lying, but I really am happy. I just can't help but feel a little jealous when I look at his profile and it's dedicated to Kiva, and to know that he does what we do with Kiva. It's normal, right? I don't even know what I am getting at. This started with who I am, and ended with Seth. It makes no sense. I am just rambling too, partly because I am bored, and partly because I have a lot of stuff on my mind.

My parents met as juniors in high school. They've been married for 17 years. Sometimes I wish that my love life was easy as that. I envy all of those high school kids that meet the love of their life. Why can't I? It makes me feel like I will never find my true love. I know I'm only 16, and I have a lot of my life left, but I don't want to wait.

Oh well. I am going to stop rambling, and I feel brave enough to make this public, but I am probably going to get a bunch of mean comments because I have screwed up my life so much that I have made people hate me.

I just don't care anymore.

Survey Things

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 21:56:42 GMT

Taken from fabulouspoet

1. Sonata Arctica
2. Iron Maiden
3. Children of Bodom
4. Finger Eleven
5. Tantric
6. Linkin Park
7. AC/DC
8. Barenaked Ladies
9. Sister Hazel
10.Gatsbys American Dream
11.My chemical Romance
12.Inforever
13. Bum Ruckus
14. The Ramones
15. Modest Mouse

Bold the bands you've heard and add 3 then post it in your journal

From mirrorglassball and leanasidhe

01. I love looking at the moon.
02. I'm single.
03. I'm nonsensical.
04. When I'm by myself, I often scream/sing/talk in crazy voices.
05. I wish I could go to school just for fun.
06. When I'm in the shower, I form possible thesis statements for future papers.
07. I hate when people type in all caps online.
08. I wish I could be an artist.
09. I try not to cry in front of people.
10. I have one younger sister.
11. I haven't had a good conversation on AIM in years.
12. I like people who make me laugh.
13. I strive to be a vegetarian.
14. I miss Herr Lelko.
15. I am addicted to reading.
16. I think dorky boys are hot.
17. I know how to do the Macarena.
18. I adore Charlotte Perkins Gilman.
19. Sarcasm is my friend.
20. I want to try opium.
21. I want to travel more.
22. Sometimes I understand math...sometimes I don't.
23. I have a great relationship with my mom.
24. I've never done a list like this.
25. I procrastinate.
26. I like thrift stores.
27. I love sleeping naked.
28. I'm a weird person.
29. I wish I spent more time with my friends.
30. I want to accomplish more of the goals I've set for myself.
31. I love new bed sheets.
32. I write terribly boring live journals, people tell me they like reading it.
33. I wish I had a job I loved.
34. I need to work out more.
35. I love waking up early and going to bed late.
36. When I die, I want to be buried on the moon.
37. I'd also like to finish school too.
38. I would love to run my own restaurant.
39. My parents are married.
40. I love making people happy.
41. I need to stand in front of the Great Pyramids before I die.
42. I want to study overseas.
43. I don't mind getting shots.
44. I like to sleep.
45. I ~~love~~ HATE coffee.
46. I feel as though few people understand me.
47. I spend too much time thinking.
48. I wish I had people to dance with.
49. I often feel like a clueless, naive person.
50. I'm insane.
51. I love taking pictures.
52. I've never had a job at Target.
53. I want to own an apartment in NYC.
54. I love having people read to me.
55. I love being in the Flower Club.
56. I want to be cremated.
57. I am not a good musician, but wish I was.
58. I enjoy talking in front of large groups of people.
59. I don't like the President.
60. I've been to (through) Germany.
61. I would like to be a marine biologist.
62. I saw a UFO once.
63. I never wish I could turn my mind off.
64. I love being creative.
65. I would like to be fluent in another language.
66. I love Queer Eye for the Straight Guy.
67. I've never told anyone all of my secrets.
68. I hate it when people around me are sad. It makes me sad.
69. One can never have too many picture frames.
70. I sing, but not well.
71. I love the rain.
72. I wish I had better grammar.
73. I wish I owned more pictures.
74. I love WINE.
75. I wish I was a real English Lady.
76. I wish I could paint.
77. I like to read.
78. I can go to a bookstore and be there for hours.
79. I might never get married.
80. I like massages.
81. I hope there is contact between humanity and extraterrestrials before I die. And I hope the extraterrestrials teach us how to be better.
82. Ben and Jerry's ice cream is the best.
83. I think I think too much.
84. I am in love with my friends.
85. I love learning new things.
86. I like to sleep under a bunch of blankets.
87. I love my room.
88. While I've had some close calls, I've never met anyone who really reminds me of me.
89. I wish more people paid attention to the news. And I wish I paid better attention to the news.
90. I was a waitress and it was the worst year of my life.
91. I wish I could live in my own house.
92. I wish I was Irish.
93. I wish I could spend my entire life traveling.
94. I like old buildings.
95. I think hating someone based on their gender, ethnicity, or sexual preference is stupid.
96. I love the night sky
97. I'm confident.
98. I have lots of regrets, and never believe people who tell me they have none.
99. I don't want any children.
100. I love my hair.

Survey

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 04:21:52 GMT

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Firstly...
Name:	Kirsten
Age:	16
Location:	Maspee
Gender:	Female
nationality:	3/4 Irish and 1/4 Austrian
Hair colour:	Reddish Brown
Eye colour:	Hazel
Weight:	125ish
Height:	5'9
Shoe size:	7
Trousers size:	umm either a 7 or 5
Secondly... your favourites
colour:	Silver
band:	Um, I dont have a favorite
brand of clothes:	Anything that looks good on me
brand of makeup:	I dont wear make up
brand of shoes:	Saucony
movie:	LotR
genre of music:	Emo
passtime:	There's a lot
lover:	Um Asa?
sport:	Tennis/Hockey
screenname:	Singovermyradio
subject:	English
least favourite subject:	Math
song:	I dont have one
holiday spot:	My house
ice cream flavour:	Strawberry
actor/actress:	Johnny Depp
fruit:	Strawberry
candy:	Reese's Pieces
dessert:	Brownies
desert:	Um.. Sahara?
lake:	I dont know
ocean:	Atlantic?
city:	Dublin... even though I've never been there
country:	Ireland
continent:	Europe
person:	Myself
quote:	I dont have one
animal:	Pig
magazine:	Star!
car:	Jetta
tv show:	Sex and the City
concert:	Dashboard... and SoCo/311
part of britain:	No fucking clue
part of the US:	Boston
kind of guitar:	?
smell:	Ass... Dan's Car (Lmao sorry, I just had to say that)
sound:	Music
salad:	Garden
pizza topping:	Onion
tv show:	you already asked that, dumb shit
friend:	I dont have a favorite. I like them all
cd:	I like a lot of them
taste:	sweet
feeling:	Love
honeymoon spot:	I dont know
book:	RotK
Thirdly... Family!
who lives in your house?:	Mom, Dad, Me, 2 sisters, Nan, dog
how many grandparents do you have?:	3
first cousins?:	7
your favourite relative?:	Tara
your least favourite relative?:	I dont know..
do you have any friends that you consider family?:	Meghan and Josh
how about family that you consider friends?:	Tara
Fourthly...friends!
Who's your best friend?:	Josh and Meghan
who knows you the best?:	Meghan
if you could date any of your friends, who would it be?:	Tom, but only if I wasn't with Asa
if you could have any famous person as your best friend, who would it be?:	Johnny Depp
who can you trust the most?:	Meghan
who trusts you the most?:	Josh
who would die for you?:	No one...
who would you die for?:	Everyone
Fifthly and lastly...love life!
single?:	No
if not, do you want to be?:
if so, do you want to be:	No
lover's name?:	Asa
are they older than you?:	Yes
what do you look for in a guy/girl?:	Personality mostly...and eyes
favourite eye colour on a guy/girl:	Blue or Green
hair colour:	Red or Brown
hair style:	I really like long hair, but it doesn't matter
body type:	Whatever
height:	Taller than me preferably
makeup or no?:	No...
best outfit:	No idea
would you consider marrying your bf/gf/crush?:	No... I'm 16
would you consider having kids with them?:	No... Again, I'm 16
do you love them or just like them?:	So far, I just like him, but i think I could love him
would you do anything for them?:	No
would they do anything for you?:	No
do they love you or just like you?:	Just like me
your lover breaks up with you and uses poor grammar. did you notice?:	yes
the end!
Describe yourself in a sentence.:	I am a freak.

more than you ever wanted to know about yourself brought to you by BZOINK!

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 13:56:51 GMT

Somehow it seems so true.

Lmao!

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 21:03:44 GMT

♥Kirsten and ♥Asa

Will never conceive two malevolent kids.
Enjoy it when they almost elope when permitted.
Dance terribly and have plenty of fun.

Orchestrated by ianiceboy

This thing is mean.

Ressurection

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 17:51:23 GMT

Hahah! I have ressurected coveredstars but only to save my entries and print them out. I will not be writing in it. Plus, I wanted the colors of that journal for this journal. I feel much more at home with this journal now, if that makes any sense!

Survey Time

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 12:18:13 GMT

ABOUT YOU

1. What do you wish you had been named? Evelyn

2. What is the nickname most people call you? Joe

3. Do you plan to change your name when you're 18? If so, to what? No. I like Kirsten, except when people think my name is Kristen. I hate that!

4. If you could become any age you wanted, right now, what age would it be and why? 21, so I could easily buy alcohol.

5. Why is (insert your favorite color here) your favorite color? Silver, because it reminds me of elves.

6. If your first choice of careers doesn't work out, what would you choose as a "backup?" A teacher, even though that’s what I currently want to be, but my first choice would be an actress, but that’s not going to work out.

7. What holiday could you easily do without? Easter

8. Assuming you have a crush on somebody, what is it exactly that you like about him/her? If you don't have a crush, what is the one quality that the person absolutely has to have? They like me for who I am, and don’t get freaked out when I am myself. They don’t mind that I am not a wicked girly girl, or I don’t have the best body. He likes me for who I am.

9. What singer or band can you imitate the best? Lmao. I do a mean impression of Cher. Honestly.

10. If your life were a book, what genre would it be? What about it's rating (G, PG, etc)? It’d probably be one of those teen drama books. My life always has some sort of drama, and it’d probably be rated R.

11. Do you worry about finding your soul mate and getting married? No. I used to believe in soul mates, but I don’t anymore. There’s no such thing.

12. If you could choose how to die, how would you? In my sleep, or at least saving someone.

13. If you were the opposite sex for a day, would you have sex with somebody of the same sex that you used to be (ex: if you're a girl and turned into a guy for a day, would you have sex with a girl, and vice versa for guys), and why/why not? No way! I’d have sex with a guy if I turned into a guy. Pussy just… does not appeal to me.

FAVORITES

Type of chocolate: Milk chocolate

Eye color: Blue or green

Dog breed: I don’t really like dogs, but… um husky?

Period in history: Probably the 1500-1600’s. Maybe 1700’s during the Revolutionary war.

Word to use when you want to sound smart: I don’t really know. Inconceivable. Haha, “You use that word a lot. I do not think it means what you think it means.” –The Princess Bride

Candle scent: Cinnamon

Method of communication (in person, telephone, etc): Probably telephone or AIM

Language: I love Gaelic… or Elvish lol

Famous painting: A Starry Night- Van Gogh. I know it’s very cliché now because everyone seems to like it now.

Weather: Sunny

Summer activity: Sleeping in

Winter activity: Ice Skating

Computer game: Monkey Island! Damn, I haven’t played that in so long! I love that game.

Boredom-buster: Music

Newspaper comic: I don’t like comics

Section in a bookstore: Fantasy

Sex/romantic scene in a movie: Umm… the only one I actually remember is in Titanic.

OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU KNOW (NOT JUST YOUR FRIENDS)

The one you can stand for the longest amount of time: Um… all of them?

Wears the funkiest socks: Colleen

The activist: Melissa

The most boy (or girl) obsessed: Justin

The horniest: Susan

The best musician: Seth

The overachiever: Melissa

The DIYer: I don’t know what that is

The worst taste in music: Josh!

Needs a life: Josh <3 lol

You absolutely couldn't live without: All of them

The best singer: Hm. Susan

The most expansive vocabulary: Susan

Has the niftiest house: Seth or Asa

Has the prettiest handwriting: Kaitlin

Talks way too much: Josh

The one you truly worry about: Asa

Never gets sick, damn them: All of my friends get sick. But I didn’t miss 1 day of school last year! Hah!

EITHER/OR

Elvis or Madonna? Madonna

Green or red? Red

Sci-fi thriller or trashy romance? Sci-fi thriller

Martial arts or yoga? Yoga

Lollipop or Hershey's Kiss? Hershey’s Kiss

When you sleep, bedroom door open or closed? Closed!

Jacket or sweatshirt? Sweatshirt

Radio or CDs? Cds

Recliner chair or cushion on the floor? Recliner chair

Bunk bed: top or bottom? Bottom

Handwriting or typing? Typing

Chicken Soup: the book or the food? The book

Ballet or jazz? Ballet

IMAGINED SITUATIONS

1. If babies could talk at birth, what do you think would be the first thing they say? I’m hungry

2. If you could read minds, would you enjoy knowing what people were thinking, or would breaching their privacy bother you? Would you consider it a burden to know everyone's innermost thoughts? No. I’d want to know what people are thinking. That’d be wicked cool.

3. Do you think you could survive in the Middle Ages? Hell yeah! I want to live during that time so badly.

4. If you knew as a little kid what you know now, what one situation would you choose to do differently? I wouldn’t stick my head in a cathouse. I’d stick up for myself more.

5. If you were given the choice to know exactly when, how, and where you would die, would you choose to know? And if you did choose to know, would you try and cheat death? I would not want to know at all. But I would try to cheat death, if I did know.

6. If you got pregnant (guys, just play along) before you were ready, what would you do? Would you ask your parents for help, or keep it from them? I’d eventually tell them and ask to get an abortion. This is the fact that I am 16. But if I was married or at least 18 and in a serious relationship, then I’d probably have the baby.

7. Do you think you would enjoy being the opposite sex for the rest of your life? What would be so enjoyable/hellish about it? I’d be alright. I’d like being a guy because I wouldn’t have to deal with my period, pregnancy, being taken advantage of. I wouldn’t like the whole being horny all the time or having to prove how tough I was and all of that.

8. If someone came up with an elixir that made you immortal, would you take it? If you would, what would you do with all the extra time? If you wouldn't, well, why not? Yeah, I would take it. I’d get to live forever and see how the world changes and it’d be cool.

9. Does the thought of being a vampire appeal to or disgust you? It’s not something I’d want to be.

10. If you were given magical powers to do just one thing, what would you do (besides giving yourself unlimited magical powers)? I’d probably want to fly.

11. If you could go back into history and change one thing only, what would you change? What do you think the repercussions of the change will be? I honestly wouldn’t change anything. That would just fuck up the future.

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 16:07:41 GMT

In 1988 (the year you were born)

Ronald Reagan is president of the US

Federal grand juries return indictments against Gen. Manuel Noriega, ruler of Panama, charging him of running drug cartels

A missile, fired from the US Navy warship Vincennes destroys a commercial Iranian airliner killing all 290 on board

A Pan-am Boeing 747 explodes over Lockerbie, Scotland from a terrorist bomb

Controversial Arizona Governor Evan Mecham is removed from office for financial misdeed

Jimmy Swaggart is defrocked when his sexual liaisons with women other than his wife are revealed

The Netherlands becomes the second country to get connected to the Internet

Al-Qaida is established by Osama bin Laden

Los Angeles Dodgers win the World Series

Washington Redskins win Superbowl XXII

Edmonton Oilers win the Stanley Cup

Rain Man is the top grossing film

A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking is published

"Faith" by George Michael spends the most time at the top of the US charts

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

More cool things for your blog at
Blogthings

I really want to go to a poetry reading.

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 17:19:05 GMT

[01] what's your first name? Kirsten
[02] middle name? Marie-Evelyn
[03] last name? Alberti
[04] nickname? Joe, KK, Kir, Llama, Slut
[05] age? 16
[06] gender? Female
[07] birthday? January 8th
[08] your sign? Capricorn
[09] where do you live? Mashpee, MA
[10] do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes
[11] if so what's her/his name? Asa
[12] have you ever been in love? Yes
[13] who are/were your crushes? Well, I obviously like Asa
[114] do you have any piercings, or want any piercings? No, not really
[15] if so what do you have/want pierced? Nothing is pierced
[16] do you have a tattoo or want one? No, but I do want one
[17] if so what kind and where? A little star on my shoulder
[18] where do you shop at the most? I shop at a lot of stores. Wet Seal is my favorite store.
[19] what color is your hair? Reddish brown
[20] what color are your eyes? Hazel
[21] how tall are you? 5’9
[23] do you smoke? No way
[24] do your friends smoke? Yes
[25] who are your closest friends? Meghan, Josh, Colleen, Chelsea, Holly
[26] who are your friends? Melissa, Asa, Justin, Aaron, Seth, Stephanie, Kaitlin, etc
[27] who are your best friends online? Dan, and Erin, and Chris
[28] do you like bath & body works? Yes
[29] kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? Herbal Essence or Dove
[30] is your hair short or long? It’s medium I guess
[31] do you like to shop? Only if I have a lot of money
[32] what sports do you play? None
[33] what turns you on? Umm, when guys are extra nice, and tell me I’m pretty and compliment me and stuff
[34] what turns you off? Clingyness, jealousy
[35] what place do you go for fun? I guess the Wall at this point
[36] what do you do for fun? Write, listen to music, hang with friends, read
[37] how many phones do you have in your house? 5
[38] how many tv's do you have in your house? 5
[39] what's your favorite food(s)? I love stir fry, chicken, pizza
[40] do you look like anyone famous? I don’t want to talk about it… ok, I will. I USED to look like Joey Ramone. I USED to.
[41] do you think ricky martin is muy guapo (very handsome)? Not really
[42] who are the most attractive people you know? Asa, Zack
[43] are you a virgin? No
[44] do you wish to be like your parents? Not really
[45] what cologne should a hot guy wear? I like Axe
[46] what are you listening to right now? Life O’Reily- NoFx
[48] how many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone? Maybe an hour all together
[49] do you have your own phone line? No
[51] what are your favorite shoes? Sauconcy (like a scene kid)
[52] what kind of clothes do you sleep in: pajamas
[53] what's your favorite soda (POP!!!!)? Root Bear
[54] what things do you say a lot? Oi!
[56] who is the coolest person in the world?: All of my friends
[57] do you think you're weird or funny? I’m both.
[59] who was the last person you called? Holly
[60] where do you wanna get married? I don’t know yet. I want an Irish wedding. It’d be cool if Dropkick’s were there lol.
[61] who is the hottest girl/guy in your school? Don’t know enough people to make an inference.
[62] what are your favorite girl names? Evelyn
[63] what are your favorite guy names? Gabriel, Malehki
[64] what's your worst memory in the past 5 years? suicide
[65] what's your favorite childhood memory? I don’t know…
[66] what is your favorite fast food restaurant? McDonald’s
[67] who do you really hate? Phil
[68] do you have any brothers and sisters? Yes
[69] if so, names? Marissa and Stephanie
[70] do you have a pool? No
[71] do you have a spa? No
[72] are you stupid? Nope
[73] what are you addicted to? Food
[74] do you like jewelry? Not really
[75] who do you wish you were? Someone rich, famous, and beautiful
[76] who has it easier, boys or girls? Boys
[77] would you rather be short or tall? I’d want to be 5’6
[78] do you like to dance? No, I can’t dance.
[79] do you like playing pranks on people? Sometimes, it’s funny
[80] what's your least favorite subject in school? Math
[81] what's your favorite subject in school? English
[82] what time is it? 11:11 a.m
[83] what college do you wanna go to? No idea yet
[84] what school do you go to now? Mashpee High School
[85] do you have a playstation or nintendo 64? Nintendo 64

[87] do you sleep a lot? No
[88] what are your favorite radio stations? 95.5 or 102.9
[90] are you a morning person? Yes
[91] what's your favorite tv station? Independent Film Channel or Discovery Channel
[92] Do you wear nail polish? No
[93] how often do you shower? Everyday
[94] do you get along with your parents? Ya
[95] what room do you spend the most time in? My bedroom or the computer room
[96] how many rooms does your house have? 11
[97] what do you wanna be when you're out of school? English teacher/writer
[98] do you curse a lot? yes
[99] are you ticklish? Very!
[100] THERE IS NO QUESTION!!! Good
[101] what are you wearing right now? Um short shorts, a black tank top, and my bathing suit
[102] do you go to church? Not anymore
[103] do you like the person who sent you this? Well, I stole it from Erin, but yes, I like her
[104] do you believe in god? Not really
[105] do you like to watch pda's? No
[106] do you show pda? Sometimes
[107] do you believe in love at first sight? No
[108] what color tooth brush do you use? Orange and white
[109] how many times a day do you brush your teeth? Two, usually
[110] who is your favorite cartoon character? Daria… or Beavis and Butthead
[111] do you have a job? Stop and Shop
[113] what's your favorite fruit? Strawberries
[114] what's your favorite veggies? Sweet Potato
[115] what's your favorite candy? Chocolate
[116] what was the best day of your life so far? When I was born lol
[117] what are you gonna do today? So far, go to dunkin donuts with Colleen, and then the pond
[118] are you momma's little angel? She thinks so.
[119] do you wear body spray? Yes
[120] who is the sweetest girl? Meghan
[121] who is the sweetest guy? Asa, well, to me anyway… haha
[122] are you wearing nail polish now? No
[123] if so, what color? N/a
[124] how many rings or necklaces do you own? Rings- 2, Necklaces-4 or 5
[125] do you wear a watch? No
[126] did/do you have braces? I do.
[127] are you tired? Not really
[130] what are you thinking right now? That I want to check my voice mail
[131] are you having fun? Actually, somewhat
[132] what time is it? 12:59 P.M
[133] who makes you laugh? All of my friends

[134] who's your favorite teacher? Mr. Charlebois
[135] what is the best concert you have ever been to? Dashboard Confessional
[136] what is your favorite dream? I can’t remember
[137] what is your worst dream? Drowning
[138] are you tired of filling this out yet? No
[139] who of your friends do you think will get bored with this the most? Jamie
[140] who sent this lovely survey to you? I took it from Erin
[141] what's your worst memory as a little kid? ? Almost getting stolen
[142] have you ever cheated on anyone/been cheated on? No
[143] do you believe in santa claus? No
[144] do you believe in ghosts? Somewhat

what's better? choose one or neither
[145] rap or r&b? R&B
[146] pop or rock? Rock
[147] rock or metal? Rock
[148] classical or jazz? Classical
[149] hanson or manson? Hanson
[150] koRn or 311? 311
[151] no doubt or garbage? Garbage
[152] jewel or fiona apple? Fiona Apple
[153] offspring or nine inch nails? Offspring
[154] sugar ray or tool? Tool
[155] backstreet boys or *nsync? BSB

[156] joey mcintyre or jordan knight? Joey McIntyre

your opinions
[157] what do you think about boy bands? They suck
[158] what do you think about country? It sucks worse than a 2 dollar whore
[159] what do you think about heavy metal? I can stand it, for a time
[160] what do you think about rap? BLECH
[161] what do you think about r&b? Ew
[162] do you think nkotb are coming back? NO!

yes or no or eh
[163] like Hanson? No
[164] like *Nsync? No
[165] like Backstreet Boys? Eh
[166] like Korn? No
[167] like Orgy? Yes
[168] like Sugar ray? No
[169] like Metalica? No
[170] like No doubt? No
[171] like Britney Spears? No
[172] like Saves The Day? Eh
[173] like Dashboard Confessional? Yes
[174] like MxPx? Yes
[175] like Nine Inch Nails? No
[176] like Busta Rhymes? No
[177] like the Offspring? Eh
[178] like Shakira? No
[179] like Nelly Furtado? No
[180] like Ludacris? No
[181] like Janet Jackson? No
[182] like Nickelback? No
[183] like Puddle Of Mudd? No
[184] like Cold? Who?
[185] like Lil Bow Wow? No
[186] like DMX? No
[187] like Twisted Sister? Yes
[188] like Misfits? Yes
[189] like ICP? NO!
[190] like Dixie Chicks? No
[191] like Mariah Carey? No
[192] like Joe? Who?
[193] like Hoobastank? Eh
[194] like Eminem? No
[195] like Shania Twain? No
[196] like Ja-Rule? No
[197] like Jay-Z? No
[198] like Blues Traveler? Eh
[199] like Barenaked Ladies? No
[200] like Incubus? Eh
[201] like Green Day? Eh
[202] like Limp Bizkit? No
[203] do you like the Beatles? No
[204] do you like The Deftones? No
[205] do you like the Strokes? No
[206] do you like Queen? Yes
[207] do you like Elton John? No
[208] do you like Further Seems Forever? Yes
[209] do you like Depeche Mode? No
[210] how many cd's do you have? A lot
[211] what cds are in your cd player? NoFx
[212] how many tapes do you have? None
[213] do you own videos of your favorite group? No
[214] do you record your favorite group when they're on tv? No
[215] are you obsessed with your favorite group/singer/band? No
[216] what's the oldest group/singer you are still listening to? Dropkick Murphy’s
[217] are most of your friends music freaks? Yes
[218] what do you think of the girls and the whole teeny bopper thing? Whatever… I don’t really care
[219] have you ever paid for a pay-per-view? My parents have for me
[220] do you ever buy merchandise of your favorite group? Yes
[221] what tv station is better...mtv or vh1? VH1
[222] what is the worst show on mtv? All of it
[223] what is the best show on mtv? Nothing
[224] if you could marry any music person who would it be? Conor Oberst
[225] what is the worst cd you own? There’s a few
[226] what's your favorite movie soundtrack? LotR
[227] friend(s) that looks most like you? Melissa
[228] friend(s) you have the most fun with? All of them! Colleen, Josh, Holly, Chelsea, Asa
[229] friend(s) you've dreamt about? Umm.. I don’t know
[230] long or short hair? Depends on the person
[231] dark or blonde? Dark
[232] tall or short? Tall
[233] mr. sensitive or mr. funny? Mr. Sensitive
[235] dark or light eyes? Light eyes
[236] hat or no hat? I like emo poet hats, like Asa’s
[237] ears pierced or no? Doesn’t matter
[238] dark, tan or fair? Whatever. Pale is cool. Like me!
[239] NO QUESTION!!!!! Why the fuck not?!
[240] freckles or none? Doesn’t matter
[241] rugged outdoorsy type or sportsy type? outdoorsy
[242] all american, homey g, or grunge? grunge
[243] accent or american? Whatever

preferences
[244] mt. dew or surge? Mt. Dew
[245] mcdonalds or burger king? McDonald’s
[246] coke or pepsi? Pepsi
[247] rather marry the perfect lover or perfect friend? Perfect lover
[248] sweet or sour? Sweet
[249] chocolate or vanilla? vanilla
[250] tea or coffee? Ew!
[251] sappy/action/comedy/horror? horror
[252] cats or dogs? cats
[253] cool ranch or nacho cheese? Cool ranch
[254] mud or jello wrestling? jello
[255] with or without ice-cubes? Without
[256] milk/dark/white chocolate? milk
[257] rain or shine? Shine
[258] top or bottom? bottom
[259] favorite season? Summer I guess
[260] strawberry or cherry? Strawberry
[261] skiing or boarding? Skiing is hard
[262] cake or cookies? cake
[263] cereal or toast? cereal
[264] car or truck? Car
[265] night or day? Night
[266] gloves or mittens? gloves
[267] pager or cell phone? Cell phone
[268] bunk bed or waterbed? Water bed
[269] chewing gum or hard candy? Chewing gum
[270] motor boat or canoe? Motorboat
[271] lights on or off? Off

what's your favorite?
[276] what's your favorite color? Silver
[277] what's your favorite number? 8
[278] what's your favorite drink? Soda
[279] what's your favorite animal? Piggy!
[280] what's your favorite holiday? Christmas
[281] what's your favorite quote? I don’t have one

[282] what's your favorite sound? I don’t know.
[283] what's your favorite ice cream flavor? Strawberry
[284] what's your favorite song ever? I have a lot
[285] what's your favorite book? LotR
[286] what's your favorite movie? Fellowship of the Ring, The Princess Bride
[287] what's your favorite tv show? Whose Line is it Anyways, ER, Sex and the City
[288] what's your favorite place? I don’t have one

[289] what's your favorite game? Checkers! Hahah Justin
[290] what's your favorite scent? Cinnamon
[291] what's your favorite shape? Star
[292] what's your favorite texture? Smooth
[293] what's your house gonna look like? Umm funky?
[294] how many kids do you want? none

on relationships
[295] what does your ideal girlfriend/boyfriend look like? Tall, dark hair, emoish/punk looking.. I’m not shallow, so it doesn’t really matter what they look like
[296] how do they act? Funny, sensitive, nice, mature when they have to be, caring
[297] where is your dream date? Laying on grass watching the stars, while Colleen is sitting in a tree watching lmao
[298] do you like to call or be called? Be called

[299] move anywhere, where would it be? Ireland
[300] what time is it now? 1:17 P.M

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 03:24:14 GMT

Asa is hot.

Mrs. Phillips

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 18:25:24 GMT

For Dan and Erin mostly:

My Mom: Who is that? Mr. Brodie?
Me: NO! It's Mrs. Phillips
My Mom: That's a woman?

New Journal

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 18:11:34 GMT

This is my new journal. Too bad it's friends only. How sad.

which of your LJ friends would come to see you perform at a strip club?
LJ Username
slips you a 20	hello_assholes
receives a lapdance from you	kalypsomarkiev
gets extra favors after the show	takeitallnow
buys you a drink	slothbabyisgod
gets kicked out by the bouncer for licking the pole	misfitme
doesn't tip you at all,that fucker	fabulouspoet

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